There has been a lot of self loathing. Hating myself for the choices I've made. How does one come to peace with it?
I was told these feelings would come and there was nothing I could do to stop it. Feeling of emptiness, sadness and guilt.
I've been trying to move forward. I've been telling myself to go do things to remind me of the positive things I have in life. Last night was the first time I felt good since the abortion. Genuine feelings of happiness brought on by my friends parents being in town and reminding me of the goodness that exists in life. Just good people who shine the brightness in life, sharing random life stories that brought laughter and giving me a sense of comfort that I am cared for. Sometimes, it just takes those friendly reminders to show us that it's going to be okay.