Busy, Busy

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Past few weeks have been super busy for me.

I ended up doing 26 readings in 1 week for practise. And probably more so as friends gained interest and then I did some here and there. It was interesting to know that I had the power to do it. I realised the week before all the readings, I was super tired and felt like I needed to sleep all the time. I feel like this was in prep of all the readings I was about to do. Some of the readings actually gave me energy whilst doing them. It was a good feeling doing that and having people resonate with it.

I went back to Dandenong ranges and did a ritual on the New Moon that occurred. I was with two others as part of my sacred circle and there was a lot of power there. It was a wet, cold day and a heavy fog filled the forest. After we did our spells and meditation, we closed circle and after looking up, the fog cleared. There was a lot of magick in the air and it felt mystical.

For some reason, Nordic music was something I just HAD to find. It was like imperative or else. so here I was asking around and trying to find like proper native sort of tribal music. Turns out, I was to use this music as part of my full moon ritual on 30th April. I opened circle and just danced around with fluidity. It was really uplifting. I did a candle spell to dispel any remnants of self-doubt and to be more open. I also sent love out to the Earth and people I thought that needed it.

Nothing has changed much in my work situation but I feel like everything outside of that is going really well! I’ve been catching up with a lot of people, making new friends, keeping up with my belly dance and meditation groups. I am in a very good place and I am grateful. The wheels are turning and I feel like I have to energy to do things. I am going to place the energy in properly completing my space at home and having a nice living space to come home to. I have completed one section and have another four to go (includes store room). I can’t wait to have it done. Then I will feel more comfortable in having people over.

It's Been Eventful

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I don’t seem to blog about my feelings lately as I seem so busy these days. With Mondays dedicated to dance, Tuesdays dedicated for meditation, I’m finding the other days fill up as well. I have started a sacred circle with 2 people I met along my path. I believe the Universe sent them along my path and I wasn’t seeing the message to connect. Well I finally listened and I think it will work towards my witchcraft quite nicely. We have a good connection and I have much to learn from them and them from me.

My mediumship classes are showing me how much my skills are expanding. I did 6 one card readings yesterday for strangers and it seemed to have really resonated with them. I am doing another 12 -13 readings today and tomorrow. I am excited with how my skills are developing and I am helping people. This is what I was made for. As I keep practising, I’m gaining more confidence in the feedback these people give me. It’s quite promising.

Work is much of the same though I finally got a manager. I have been suffering anxiety and spoke with a counsellor not long ago to give me steps to overcome this situation. She told me to be more mindful and really be more present. Don’t think about work on the way to work, but listen to music and start paying attention to my surroundings. On top of this, I’ve started dancing in the morning to get exercise in and taking regular breaks at work so I am not so anxious. It’s really been helping.

My meditations are getting into some more deeper symbols. Because I don’t know what these mean, I ordered a symbology book to help understand what these can mean and give me guidance. A lot of what I see for myself are symbols and it’s hard to interpret. I also did my first tarot reading for myself with a deck I bought when I was in high school. Never really touched the deck until now (some 15 years later), so I am starting to learn this also. My first reading on myself said if I’m not careful, I will stretch myself thin both physically and spiritually, so I really need to focus on my health and just general well-being. Last week I felt so drained and it was really odd. I feel fine now as I asked a clear quartz crystal to help energise me, but maybe that was a cry for help from my body to just take it easy. I may also go have a blood test to see how I’m doing. The overall message from my tarot reading was that I’m connected to these other 2 in my sacred circle and they will assist me.

Apart from this, I spent some time in nature – I visited Lorne in Victoria which was a nice coastal city and the Dandenong Ranges had some nice forest and greenery. I think I am very much earth element and when I spend time in nature, I feel so calm and peaceful. I can’t wait to spend more time there when I can. I see my skills spiritually are expanding and there is so much more to come! If anyone wants a card reading, please let me know as I’m open and not charging for them as I’m still learning.

Oh Dear.... It's Been Over a Month

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So I didn't realise that I hadn't written in this online diary in so long. The last 2 weeks have actually been busy, and this weekend, I've just taken some time to be alone. I've really needed this.

My routine is quite set on Mondays - I have belly dance and Tuesdays - I have meditation. The past 2 weeks I've had music gigs to go and I've really enjoyed them. I mean, that's what I live for these days. Apart from this, I have been catching up with people and I haven't given myself a much needed break. 

Work isn't any better and I still have no control over that situation. I have tried looking for jobs, but nothing has come up that has really grabbed my attention. It's the one area of my life that continues to drain me, and flows onto all the activities I'm trying to enjoy outside of work. I haven't written the story for my book in over 2 weeks. To me, it's kind of disastrous right now.

I continue to blog daily to keep up routine, but I get frustrated at the drain work has over me right now, and how it's impacting my life. Like, all I want to do is read a book or study paganism, but I don't have any mental capacity to just get this done. I'm really struggling and it's annoying. Work is so out of balance for me, that once resolved, then my life will be fine. Well, that's what I believe anyway.

I just feel behind on my life goals. How does one gain more energy when you know what the problem is, but can't do anything about it? It's just a messed up situation to be in and I can only hold patience.

On some good news, I see my mediumship skills starting to really expand. My latest class from Sunday showed a major power shift and my teacher advised that we're all going to catapult from here. I feel both scared and excited, though more excited than anything. I want to practise more readings and get more skills. I think I can really do something good in this world through this work. The most exciting part was finally seeing the god Apollo when I've been wanting to "see" him for so long. I became attached to him from a card deck and he was a duplicate card, which showed to me that he was meant to be one of my guides. I've always connected to angel Ezekiel, Apollo and Mother Earth Gaia as my trio set. Apollo was the last guide that I hadn't actually seen, and this power shift was where he presented himself. It was a happy time for me! For anyone reading this, I saw this via a guided meditation.

So, I'll just keep doing what I'm doing, and hope the work situation really sorts itself by end of April.  All I want is more power and strength to get through the days, so I can get to my life goals.