August Self-Care

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I took some time off work to just get away from it. I don’t have anything in particular planned but I wanted to focus on myself. I think self-care is important and it’s for my own sanity. So far I have decluttered my clothing again, make-up and kitchen. It’s been good in that regard.

I celebrated my 34th birthday and realised that birthday celebrations are a bit overrated so I may just not celebrate any further. I don’t feel the joys of it like I used to and that’s more than okay. I think I’m growing out of it.

I have so much work to do in regards to my writing and business. I keep getting messages to just start. Doesn’t matter of what’s right or wrong but just initiating some movement on them is a step in a forward direction. I’m just stuck at the moment of nothingness. Sometimes I feel so tired to do anything and I guess these 2 weeks I’ve taken off will allow me to just rest. Maybe that’s all I need right now.

I feel like time escapes me a lot. It’s not that I sleep in often during this time off, but before I know it, it’s 3pm and I don’t know where the day has gone. I’ve been trying to create a space that I like living in for some time and I thought I would focus on just that, but also setting up my business is important too. I’m like torn on how to spend my time. At the moment, I’m just trying to do what I can.

A positive is that I finished learning an oracle deck and I’m ready to start my next one. I have caught up on my blogging that I was a bit behind on. I feel like I need to study more in my witchcraft and do a lot of reading which I haven’t been motivated to do.

The thing that kind of hindered my spirit was a tax bill from 2017 because my employer hadn’t taken the right amount of money out. Have yet to do taxes for 2018 but I feel like I’m going to have the same dilemma. I think it was a wake up call to be wiser with my money. I want to save so I can go travel next year as I wasn’t able to go this year. Got to clear my debts out before I got travelling further I think.

I have a lot of catching up with people to do also. Again, finding time is my current problem. Is there a way to extend time? Or be in 2 places at once? I would love that. If I could stretch myself in this way, I feel like I’d get so much more done.

At the moment, it’s busy but I just got to keep making tracks, even if they are small tracks.

Busy, Busy

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Past few weeks have been super busy for me.

I ended up doing 26 readings in 1 week for practise. And probably more so as friends gained interest and then I did some here and there. It was interesting to know that I had the power to do it. I realised the week before all the readings, I was super tired and felt like I needed to sleep all the time. I feel like this was in prep of all the readings I was about to do. Some of the readings actually gave me energy whilst doing them. It was a good feeling doing that and having people resonate with it.

I went back to Dandenong ranges and did a ritual on the New Moon that occurred. I was with two others as part of my sacred circle and there was a lot of power there. It was a wet, cold day and a heavy fog filled the forest. After we did our spells and meditation, we closed circle and after looking up, the fog cleared. There was a lot of magick in the air and it felt mystical.

For some reason, Nordic music was something I just HAD to find. It was like imperative or else. so here I was asking around and trying to find like proper native sort of tribal music. Turns out, I was to use this music as part of my full moon ritual on 30th April. I opened circle and just danced around with fluidity. It was really uplifting. I did a candle spell to dispel any remnants of self-doubt and to be more open. I also sent love out to the Earth and people I thought that needed it.

Nothing has changed much in my work situation but I feel like everything outside of that is going really well! I’ve been catching up with a lot of people, making new friends, keeping up with my belly dance and meditation groups. I am in a very good place and I am grateful. The wheels are turning and I feel like I have to energy to do things. I am going to place the energy in properly completing my space at home and having a nice living space to come home to. I have completed one section and have another four to go (includes store room). I can’t wait to have it done. Then I will feel more comfortable in having people over.

It's Been Eventful

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I don’t seem to blog about my feelings lately as I seem so busy these days. With Mondays dedicated to dance, Tuesdays dedicated for meditation, I’m finding the other days fill up as well. I have started a sacred circle with 2 people I met along my path. I believe the Universe sent them along my path and I wasn’t seeing the message to connect. Well I finally listened and I think it will work towards my witchcraft quite nicely. We have a good connection and I have much to learn from them and them from me.

My mediumship classes are showing me how much my skills are expanding. I did 6 one card readings yesterday for strangers and it seemed to have really resonated with them. I am doing another 12 -13 readings today and tomorrow. I am excited with how my skills are developing and I am helping people. This is what I was made for. As I keep practising, I’m gaining more confidence in the feedback these people give me. It’s quite promising.

Work is much of the same though I finally got a manager. I have been suffering anxiety and spoke with a counsellor not long ago to give me steps to overcome this situation. She told me to be more mindful and really be more present. Don’t think about work on the way to work, but listen to music and start paying attention to my surroundings. On top of this, I’ve started dancing in the morning to get exercise in and taking regular breaks at work so I am not so anxious. It’s really been helping.

My meditations are getting into some more deeper symbols. Because I don’t know what these mean, I ordered a symbology book to help understand what these can mean and give me guidance. A lot of what I see for myself are symbols and it’s hard to interpret. I also did my first tarot reading for myself with a deck I bought when I was in high school. Never really touched the deck until now (some 15 years later), so I am starting to learn this also. My first reading on myself said if I’m not careful, I will stretch myself thin both physically and spiritually, so I really need to focus on my health and just general well-being. Last week I felt so drained and it was really odd. I feel fine now as I asked a clear quartz crystal to help energise me, but maybe that was a cry for help from my body to just take it easy. I may also go have a blood test to see how I’m doing. The overall message from my tarot reading was that I’m connected to these other 2 in my sacred circle and they will assist me.

Apart from this, I spent some time in nature – I visited Lorne in Victoria which was a nice coastal city and the Dandenong Ranges had some nice forest and greenery. I think I am very much earth element and when I spend time in nature, I feel so calm and peaceful. I can’t wait to spend more time there when I can. I see my skills spiritually are expanding and there is so much more to come! If anyone wants a card reading, please let me know as I’m open and not charging for them as I’m still learning.