You know how people always tell you:
Well, I have only believed in this recently. I thought about it more last night with my free time.
Growing up I was bullied, teased from racial abuse, had no confidence in myself and basically had no self esteem. I was a person who lived in fear of what other people thought about me. Of course this transcended into my adult years, until, I met a friend that changed my life. When you meet someone who has an illness, who can be taken away at any moment, and they teach you to live every day as though it's your last, it really changes how you want to live your life. It's a scary thought, having a friend that can be taken away at any moment though this didn't seem to weigh them down. They go on living every day to the fullest. I thought to myself, why am I not applying this to my own life?
My ex thought I was changing as a person and he didn't like the person I was becoming based on outside influences. I never saw myself as changing. If anything, I was awakened. My eyes were opened and I started doing things that made me happy. At the end of the day isn't that what everyone wants?
I learned to love myself. I realised that it didn't matter if people didn't like me - well, you can't make everyone in the world like you. I didn't care if people didn't like what I was doing - it's my life, why would it matter to anyone else? The only opinions I should care about are those closest to me. I wasn't so self-conscious. My self esteem was boosted. I accepted myself.
This brings me to the serenity prayer. I love this prayer and there are many variations though I like how this version is written:
"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference."
Whether you believe in God or not, is up to you. I think it's a powerful saying and a great lesson. The way I interpret it is to learn the power within you and know that you have the power to make changes in your life for the better. To learn the power within to make positive changes at that. The things you cannot change are those that are from the past and it is about moving forward and opening yourself up to all the possibility. It is about knowing that you are the only person that can make your life better - not anyone else. Once you can accept this, then you will truly find inner peace and love yourself.
I am the happiest I have ever been in my life and it is positive because I changed my thought processes. I notice many people around me not happy with themselves or not happy with their lives. I hope they learn from what I have to offer to make some positive and powerful changes in their lives. It comes from within and the power to love one's self.