Day 203 - A Year to Clear - Check In WEEK 29 - Accepting and Allowing

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Lesson 203: Check In WEEK 29 - Accepting and Allowing

The week was very much about accepting your self and being present in the moment. It was a lesson of jut letting things be just as they are – not that you had to necessarily change anything but just fully acknowledging your self. How did it make you feel? What got in your way?

I felt like the blocker was just my monkey mind and all the silly thoughts that can flow through. I think the thing with self-acceptance is that it’s done in parts. You can learn to love and accept all parts of you, but it takes time. I don’t think it happens overnight. I think it’s a step by step process of you working through the characteristics, habits, patterns, qualities of you that you don’t necessarily like, you may fail to recognise or think are good, though others love you for it.

I think the meditation of really being in the now helped to calm everything down and make you realise that there’s no need to look in the past or future, but just be in the now. It’s actually hard to achieve this all the time. But the more we can stay in the present, it allows you to let go but also clear space for being more open.

Day 202 - A Year to Clear - Say Yes To Now

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Lesson 202: Say Yes To Now

“Always say ‘yes’ to the present moment. What could be more futile, more insane, than to create inner resistance to what already is? What could be more insane than to oppose life itself, which is now and always now? Surrender to what is. Say ‘yes’ to life — and see how life suddenly starts working for you rather than against you.”

— Eckhart Tolle

Today is all about being present and just saying yes. What is something that you can say yes to in this present moment without any hesitation? Just do it!

On my Saturday, I got asked to do tarot readings on a day that I don’t usually. I said “I’ll just go with it and go with the flow”. I just said yes more so for the opportunity and didn’t hesitate. I think it helps alleviate the other readers who would be busy that day so it’s a chance to increase my skill and extend my readings out on a busier day. I am trying to see the opportunity in situations when I say yes to things. There is always a chance to learn within reason.

This lesson definitely reminds me of that Jim Carrey movie “Yes Man” because when he said yes to doing everything, it opened him up to new experiences and possibilities. I think when we live in the now, we gain so much. It’s when our monkey mind steers us with doubt and fear, that causes us to question whether it’s a good idea to do the task or not. If we say yes without a moment to think, we are allowing ourselves to be open to many new opportunities. This is what I’m trying to live by. If I don’t like what I just attempted, then I won’t do it again – plain and simple. Got to give it a go before you dismiss it right?

Day 197 - A Year to Clear - Be Here Now

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Lesson 197: Be Here Now

New week equals a new theme and this week is "Accepting and Allowing."

From this I believe it’s all about being in the present moment. Being mindful and fully absorbing what is happening in that moment. It’s allowing the natural flow of events to just be. I feel like this will be a week of really opening up awareness and accepting the things we can’t change. What’s in the past should stay there and it’s about allowing the change in clearing open us up more. That is my prediction and we shall see what comes.

Day 180 - A Year to Clear - Internal Markers

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Lesson 180: Internal Markers

With the clearing course, there are obvious triumphs in the physical sense of clearing but what are the “internal markers”? Is there a way to remain present and spacious when faced with situations you are normally uncomfortable in? Is there a way to get through life without having a button pressed? How does one discover those triggers that makes us cycle through the storm that comes internally?

I know for me that I see triumph over the storm when I truly face my emotions. I like to know why I might get angry at something or frustrated. Lately, I have been dealing with anxiety at work and I couldn’t figure out why. I went to see a councillor who advised that I set my expectations too high and that when they are not met, I get frustrated and anxious that situations aren’t going my way. His advice to me was to lower my expectations in my work situation. He didn’t say not to lose my high standards or lower my own beliefs, it was more so that if I place too much expectation on something then I will get disappointed. I understood what he was saying and took that on board. I think that sometimes I’m not always going to figure out my triggers on my own but at least I’m open to discovering them.

I think what I try to do with most situations with friends or family that I don’t really know if I want be around, is to give it benefit of the doubt. I am much a person of giving something a go and if it doesn’t work out, then I just don’t do it again. I think living through experience is one of the better ways I have ever lived. Just give it a try and see how it works out.

I think the trigger I do recognise that causes anger in me is the inconsideration of others and how that can impact myself and those around me. Either people don’t have compassion, they live with ignorance or they just don’t care about how their environment effects the world around them. It’s a certain selfishness that I have difficulty understanding. It can be a simple act of not letting someone out of an elevator before entering themselves or walking in front of a car that is going through a green light. It’s like people purposely act shit sometimes. I have to remind myself that not everyone thinks like me.

Overall, I think this course has taught me to look at my emotions and feelings. There is no way to go through life without getting a rise in emotions, but I feel like I’m more self-aware than ever to be able to deal with them.