Day 33 - A Year to Clear - Energy in the Room

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Lesson 33: Energy in the Room

Catching up from another hectic week. The next few weekends are going to be like this but I’ll do my posts when I can.

Friday’s lesson revolves around noticing the energy in the room and being aware. I am to notice which room feels more “contracted”, and be aware of that more over the one that makes me feel good. I am to notice if my breathing changes, but know there is nothing to do, and just notice what’s happening.

Friday all I did was go to work, then I worked from home because we were moving offices, my mate Ben came over and then we went to a gig. The room I felt so free in was at the gig. I like to take notice of the type of people that go to enjoy the music we’re about to embrace. I like that we are well having a shared experience.

Work felt a little contracted because we were forced to pack up our things before our scheduled time. It was a bit of a “thanks for the late notice” type of feeling in the room, but I just got on with it. I didn’t take notice of my breathing, even though I read the lesson beforehand. I just let it flow. Even though there was a feeling of frustration in the room, there was nothing I could do to control it. So the only thing I could do was go with the flow.

I find the only times I feel a sense of “contraction” in the room is when others are angry or frustrated at something. I feel that energy emanating and sometimes I absorb when I don’t want to. It can be very taxing on the body. I try not to let it impact me but sometimes that is easier said than done.  I also try to avoid those type of toxic situations when I can.

Another lesson in awareness and stuck energy… I found that if I practised this too much I might overthink the feeling in the room and then my own feelings. I know to avoid bad feelings in the room but I wouldn’t want to assess every situation as soon as I enter the room. Do you know what I mean? I feel like it’s better to focus on what feels good and trying to move stuck energy in a room if need be.

Day 33 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - How Awake Are You?

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Lesson 33: When you are awake...

Life is amazing when you are truly awake. Everything should be vibrant and lively. If we aren’t living with this in mind, appreciating the wonder, then we are asleep in life. We create a numbness to the world we live in.

I am to imagine a cup to see how full it is and this determines how awake I am today.

I had difficulty with this one today because I am sleepy tired. I tried meditating on it and fell asleep. So I decided to take a nap to refresh and kind of feel worse for it. Every time I saw this cup, I felt like I was forcing it to appear in my meditation. I tried at least 3 times.

From what I could see, I’d pick up the cup and drink from it, but just a sip. When I look down, it was then that I would see how full the cup is. The cup is always full to the point of when you like make a cup of tea. So more than 75% but not full to the brim.

This makes sense to me because I am trying to live with more patience, tolerance and understanding. I live for experience. Everything can be wonderful if we truly want to experience and make our lives enriched. I try not to miss out on opportunities and it’s a very different turn to whom I used to be. I want to say I tried everything I wanted to at least once and never look back with regret. I think when I really can manage my goals, I would imagine that cup to be overflowing.

Day 32 - A Year to Clear - Sensory Leadership

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Lesson 32: Sensory Leadership

Today I am to identify out of my six senses, I lead with when relating them back to items, situations, people etc. Stephanie used an example of she could “smell things a mile away – like people smoking in their cars” or “smell a scam”. I tend to lead with inner knowing and sight.

I tend to observe people a lot and I usually know if they are good people or not. There’s an inner knowing that I have, which actually determines my stance on someone, just by seeing them for the first time. Might sound like a bunch of baloney to some people, but I actually know when people are genuinely good or not. Whatever energy people radiate, I can judge it based off sight and inner knowing. It’s why I choose not to hang out with particular people if there is a group situation where someone I don’t vibe with is there.  I’d happily avoid any situation, because I don’t need whatever toxicity coming from that person to cloud my world, and I’m not sorry about it. My life is how I want to live it, not how others coerce people to do what they want.

I didn’t really need to do a massive meditation to determine this about me. I’ve always had this ability, but more so now that I decided to follow a path of spirituality. I did a mini meditation before, for my other post on my spiritual awakening lesson, and had a hexagon with a palm that had an eye in it come up. I think this has flowed into today’s lesson because it reinforces that I lead off intuition and sight rather than any other senses. I relate to people and situations more so through this function. It’s how I approach and engage in most things that I do these days.

Out of your senses, which one do you usually lead with?

Day 32 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Awake

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Lesson 32: Being here now means...

“Lesson 32: Being here now means getting awake, and staying awake. It’s really easy to doze off in the routine of schedules, to dos, shoulds, fear, fantasy, addiction. If you’re really awake, life looks like a whole different animal.”

— Sara Wiseman

 Today I am to note how awake I am. I’m about 40% because I was adamant to see the Super Blue Blood Moon at 23:50 (when it was full), which I am sooooo glad I did. It’s something rare and beautiful, and I was willing to sacrifice sleep in order to have a glimpse.

So what will require me to be more awake? Maybe for work to be more interesting, so I stay engaged day to day. My job is a bit in limbo because there has been a restructure and there is no direction. Most days are boring and I am quite the person who appreciates structure.

I am to just simply ask to be more awake. I did a spell last night for me to have more concentration in general, so I can be more awake. For those that don’t know me, yes I’m a practising witch and light worker.  I sat at my desk to do a quick meditation and asked to be more alert and awake. As I closed my eyes I saw a hexagonal shape with a palm that had an eye in it. I feel like this is more intuitive clarity and my “awake” -ness is more spiritual than being awake for the day to day grind.

That’s pretty much all I’ve got for now. Maybe that’s all I needed.

Day 31 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Stuck

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Lesson 31: When we are stuck...

Today’s lesson revolves around our use of the words “yes” and “no”. When we say “no” we are to consider this as being stuck, there is nothing we should say no to but that it’s all part of our journey and soul growth. We should always be saying “yes”.

I am having trouble figuring out what events and circumstances in which I say no to. This spiritual path I’m on has me the most open I’ve ever been. When you think about all the trivial things we worry about in western society, I’ve learned that none of it matters in the end. When I place my experience with western society against my trip to an elephant village in Thailand last year, it really puts things in perspective. Seeing the way other people living with simplicity opened my eyes, but it also opened my eyes to more conservation required and environmental issues. I was telling a friend yesterday how I struggled to conform back into the way we live in the western world after that trip. I feel now that I am sucked back into the negative cycle that it can be. I’m all for living through experience now but sometimes the conditioning we succumb to in the western world can be inhibiting. We stress in this fast paced environment that isn’t beneficial to our overall health. But anyway…. I’ve gone off topic.

I am 34 this year and I feel like I haven’t really been living. I wasted some time in my 20s but I’m using my time now to really live. I go see live music more than I ever have, I am starting on my creative projects, I push my comfort zones in order to learn. I rarely say no now. I might say no because I want rest, but when I think about it, I’m actually saying yes to some relaxation time. My friend Bonny actually taught me how his life turned around because he started saying yes to everything. It’s kind of like the Jim Carrey movie “Yes Man” – by how saying yes to everything can lead to a very enriching, full, eventful and positive experience. So, that’s how I live now. I live through experience because that’s how I will feel successful in life. Lots of things on the bucket list (a list I’ve misplaced) but there is still a lot of travelling to do, mastery of my witchcraft and light work and eventually I want  to be healing the world. I say yes to everything that allows me to truly live.