Day 94 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - There is Often Resistance...

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Lesson 94: There is Often Resistance...

Today’s lesson is about the resistance we will feel with the concept of there being no forgiveness. In the last post, I definitely struggled with it because I believe both can exist. I get the whole idea that we should do away with the idea of placing a human above another, and essentially that is what forgiveness entails. For me, I believe there are situations where you do need to get power back from people who have had it over you though and vice versa.

Today there will be someone who crosses your path in a negative way and instead of applying forgiveness, we should hold compassion for them and take it a step further and hold compassion for yourself.

I had a pretty positive day. I didn’t do much and ended the day meeting my friends parents over dinner. The only thing that kind of weirded me out was I was in a store looking at books and the sale clerk is staring at me. I could see him staring at me through the corner of my eye, so I look up and say hello. Imagine a pillar that has shelves on each side and I was walking around said pillar looking at book options. Anyway, so I’m walking around this pillar shelf and this guy continues to stare at me so I go to another wall to be out of the line of sight. Then this guy was then following me around each wall and staring so I decide to leave. I felt uncomfortable. If you want to talk to me, just do it rather than coming across as creepy.

This is the only “negative” thing that happened today and I don’t even classify it as being negative really. It was just something odd that happened. I am applying compassion in the sense of that I hope that this guy gains the confidence he needs to engage with people rather than just staring from afar. For all I know, he may have been attracted to me but didn’t know how to approach it. I apply compassion for him in this sense. The compassion I apply for myself is automatically thinking this person as creepy. I judged the situation based on my own feeling of being uncomfortable rather than taking s moment of understanding.

How did you go with this exercise?

Day 93 - A Year to Clear - Pins and Needles

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Lesson 93: Pins and Needles

“What you may experience are the pins and needles of waking up after holding on for an entire lifetime.—Your Spacious Self”

— Stephanie Bennett Vogt

We all have extremely good days where we’re buzzing with energy and others days where we all flat. This goes the same with the clearing process. We may feel clearer and less clear. Today is about recognising “growing pains” that have been coming up lately and if we can name them without judgement.

I think I am struggling with this lesson in general. I’m trying to read it and it’s just not sinking in. I know I am to recognise what’s been a pain for me on the clearing journey so far, but I can’t really think of something that is growing also. All I can recognise is what I’ve kind of always had all along and it’s the laziness and the procrastination I can sometimes have on tasks, but after I do them, I feel so much better. I think for me it’s getting started that can be the actual problem ,so that comes back to motivation. I think sometimes over thinking it can come into play, so I just need to just really let go. Still learning so hopefully by the end of the year, I’ll actually “get it”.

Day 93 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - There is No Forgiveness...

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Lesson 93: There is No Forgiveness...

Today’s concept may ruffle some feathers – “there is no forgiveness”. We are learning to accept our second passage of the heart which is compassion so rather than take on forgiveness, we should use compassion instead. The idea of forgiveness means we hold a power over another or them over us, though by taking the approach of compassion, we may see the differences in how we use our energy. Today we are to hold another person we have deemed that we were wronged, hurt or betrayed by, with compassion, rather than applying forgiveness. See how you feel when you take this different approach.

I am kind of 50/50 on this. I think when you have been wronged quite badly, both forgiveness and compassion can be applied. I think applying compassion is definitely a good mentality to have. It’s not something I had ever thought about until I started doing this course. I applied compassion to my mother’s ex-boyfriend who said some hurtful things to me. I know I have abundance in my life where he may be lacking. So even though what he said hurt me at the time, I could only apply compassion now after some reflection. Some would say I forgive him because I definitely felt hurt. It’s only now as an adult, that I can apply compassion. If you had asked me to apply compassion as a teenager, I would have probably old you to fuck off because I was hurt and my feelings needed to be validated. It’s only upon some self-awareness and reflection, you could even say becoming wiser, that I can apply compassion for this person.

It’s a tough one today. A lot of the message is that forgiveness has no use to you, but I am in 50/50 agreement and disagreement. I think we hold the power of forgiveness when people hold power over us with the bad things they did to us. If anything, we’ve given power over to others when they’ve wronged us and they win by making us feel down and hurt. I think it’s important to gain our power back, in our own ways, in order to forgive and apply compassion to those, even when they don’t necessarily deserve it. I think it’s tough in itself to apply compassion but it does open us up to be more peaceful.

I’ll leave this with you to ponder on….

Day 92 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - To Be Holy...

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Lesson 92: To Be Holy...

“Lesson 92: To be holy does not mean to be mistake free! To be holy does not mean to be perfect! To be holy is to be everything: to hold complete integration of your human and Divine being, in one body.”

— Sara Wiseman

Today is about thinking about the notion of “good” and “bad”. We are all conditioned with this concept - We feel good, we feel bad, that person is good, that person is bad etc. But what would happen if we did away with this? What if things were just as they were, neither good or bad. Whatever our situations or experiences, they just simply are. We make decisions that might turn out to be mistakes, but we should simply treat it as a decision that didn’t go according to plan, rather than saying it was a bad decision. We do things to make us feel really good, rather than to feel bad, but can’t we just categorise it as assisting in our own self-care?

We all are just all encompassing beings. The energy flows and it just is. Everything flows in and everything flows out. We accumulate experiences and it’s about achieving oneness to it all. This isn’t an easy concept to embrace. In fact, I think it’s quite difficult to train your brain into another way of thinking that is governed by society. I am currently trying to do away with the concept of “good” and “bad”, and just accept things as they are. You almost have to apply that saying “it is what it is” to do away with “good” and “bad”. I am trying to accept people as they are as well as situations. You really have to change your ways to be this accepting of this foreign concept and go with it. Definitely easier said than done, but definitely do try it! Let people and situations be as they are without any categorisation or judgement. It’s about being open to it all.

Day 92 - A Year to Clear - Get Spacious

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Lesson 92: VIDEO - Get Spacious

Today’s lesson is a video found on https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=By2IHlqxhC0 and we’re introduced into the new week’s theme “Getting Spacious."

It goes over the fact that we’ve been learning to “slow down, simplify, sense” and how we can’t move forward without “surrender” and “self-care”. Clearing shouldn’t be a chore but should be an enjoyable experience. The video speaks of a good cleansing ritual that you can use in your shower or bath – it involves mixing half salt and half baking soda and using this before the end of the shower by rubbing it all over your body or pouring into a bath to just soak in it. In some practises, salt is good for protection but also cleansing. So you can say, it’s a washing away of what was so that you feel refreshed to go into your clearing practises.